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Saturday, April 13th, 2013
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if you want me to add you, leave a comment.
shows & whatnot:
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Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010
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Monday, January 25th, 2010
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putting this here so i don't lose it. hmmm kinda interested.
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call for submission for Riot Grrl Life Zine
Body: they on our top friends list. so if you have something to say read below...
With the first issue done, Were starting work on Issue two.
Heres YR chance to get some of yr work in the zine.
We are accepting, poetry, art work (Scribbles and all that). photographs, stories, essays, and anything you think would work in our zine.
We also have a specific call to Riot-GUYS! I want to know what yr thoughts are of guys in the feminist community, how are yall accepting, do you call yrself a feminist and why you do or dont...anything about you being in the feminist/riotgrrrl world.
Next issue will be about double the size of the current issue, It will be full of our views on the world and news stories. Info about our rights, more rad bands to get into, awesome poetry, essays, stories of yr life in this world. So why not be apart of this all and contribute something to the zine?! we cant offer much, But you get a free copy of the zine when its done and YR piece out there in the world.
So to contribute email us what ya have at: riotgrrrlife@gmail.com or send us a message if your wanting to mail us drawings or other pieces!
PS. If YR in a band and want a CD reviewed, Hit us up with how to get that done!
-Elizabeth
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Wednesday, July 8th, 2009
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http://morbidanatomy.blogspot.com/2009/07/best-class-in-world-what-things-mean.html
http://syndicated.livejournal.com/morbid_anat/85720.html
"What Things Mean: The Material Culture of Science"
Center City Museums
Start Date: Tue July 14
Instructors : Robert Hicks, Museum Educators and Curators
Tue Jul 14, Wed Jul 15, Thu Jul 16: 9:30 am - 5:00 pm
Tue Jul 21, Wed Jul 22, Thu Jul 23: 9:30 am - 5:00 pm
Students investigate the history of science through its material culture of artifacts, images, and specimens. Over six days—two each at the College of Physicians of Philadelphia (Mütter Museum), American Philosophical Society, and the Chemical Heritage Foundation—students will participate in guided discussions and practical exercises oriented to the collections of these institutions. Class exercises aim to demonstrate the value of artifact study as a means to investigate the history of science, technology, and medicine. Students will complete their own project based on any component of the collections examined, an object-study lesson plan that may be used to supplement classroom activities in history, science, social studies, or art classes. Guided discussions and exercises are conducted with museum curators and educators in an inquiry-based format that begins with examining the essential properties and characteristics of objects, followed by questions about their esthetic, symbolic, and sociological meanings.
Artifacts may include scientific instruments, materials, machinery, but the material culture of science includes anatomical specimens, models or simulations, manuscripts, correspondence, fine art (including scientific portraiture), illustrations and other images, or personal memorabilia. “The cultural analysis of artifacts requires students to probe for hidden beliefs, values, associations, and meanings. [David Pantalony, “What is it? Twentieth-century Artifacts out of Context,” History of Science Society Newsletter 37.3 (July 2008), p. 18.]
Guest speakers from the Philadelphia Area Center for History of Science member institutions may complement the discussions and exercises. Students’ grades are based on class participation, a final exam, and the lesson plan assignment.
No science or mathematical background is necessary for this course, but an aptitude for and interest in historical investigation is essential.
This class sounds totally amazing!!! I really wish I could take it.
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Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
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ATTN plz, FTMs / transmen, f-t-whatever, female-assigned genderqueers, etc. etc. etc.
for those of you who can pee standing up... what do you use (if anything), have you "mastered" it (aiming, how / where to stand, etc) and if so, how long did it take to do so, etc? if you bought or made something to use to help you out, what'd you make it from or what's it made from? how much did it cost?
i have the remainders of the piss-tube and the spoon part from a Pissin Passin Packer that i cut a lot shorter, so it would only work now with the "small" packer i have, but when i put it in that, it makes the dick stick straight out, which is not so good. So I need to figure out what kinda tubing and such to get to make something new to pee with (in addition to practicing aiming just with my own junk). Any suggestions for materials? I remember I got what I'm guessing is PVC vinyl clear tubing before from a hardware store and that was too rigid and too small.
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i just watched this really beautiful Argentinian film called XXY. It's a remarkable coming-of-age story about an intersexed teenager and how ze comes to terms with love, sexual attraction, hir gender and body, and the decision of whether or not to continue taking female hormones. The story is wonderful, beautiful, many times heartbreaking, also sweet because of the falling in love and having sex for the first time with that person. The acting is superb, especially Inés Efron who plays the character Alex (the intersexed teen) brilliantly, Martín Piroyansky who plays Alvaro (the boy Alex falls in love with, who also falls in love with Alex), all of the actors who play Alex's parents and Alvaro's parents (can't remember their names). The settings (various places in a seemingly small town outside of Beunos Aires) are really gorgeous, particularly the beach scenes (except one that made my heart break a bit more), but also the scenes in the woods and various peoples' houses. It is in Spanish and has English subtitles.
here's an IMDB link w/ stuff about the movie (but there's a ~spoiler warning~ on there too) - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0995829/
I'd love to write more about the film, I really, really, really loved it and intend on buying it so I can watch it many more times, but I have to go now.
If you can find it someplace, you should definitely see the film, I highly doubt you'll regret it.
I wish I could find whatever they used in the film to get Alex to pee standing up and out into the ocean. Whatever it was, I want one. Also, I'm totally jealous of how tiny Inés Efron's chest is, and how skinny Inés Efron is overall. Meh.
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Jamison Green has made up surveys for FTMs/transmen and their partners on sex and relationships. The deadline is tomorrow. I just found out about it, heh, sorry. You can still fill out the survey even if you don't have a partner currently. Supposedly they're kinda long but I dunno cuz I haven't started them yet.
( click this for a lot more details, etc., from Jamison Green )
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i was talking to my dad about his definition of the words "psychopath" / "psychopathology" etc. and how i found them too vague and problematic because of that, and he said that it's really hard to have a conversation with me about [mental health-related stuff] because i'm so strong in my beliefs about it and against labels. i suppose that's true -- though i'm not against people labeling their own experiences however they want, whether with mainstream mental health terms or otherwise -- i just don't like alleged "sane" people labeling other folks' experiences or personality traits with diagnoses or whatever because i think that oversimplifies, ignores and negatively judges peoples' experiences / personality traits. one of the things i believe in most when it comes to mental health-/madness-related stuff is self-determination.
anyway, basically my dad was saying that i have a habit of strongly rejecting mental health labels (which is true, when the labels are put upon folks by other people, not by themselves, as i've said).
so i'm thinkin about that whole labeling thing (and also how i totally need to go to bed now cuz it's quarter to 3AM! whoops!), and i guess i am sorta just not into labels in general, i find them difficult and problematic a lot of the time, personally, and it's been sorta hard for me to settle on labels for myself that are big and roomy and comfy enough to fit me. i mean, i guess it would be nice to just not label myself, but y'know, whatever. sometimes i like a box to make a bed in, instead of lying outside freaking out about the vulnerability that comes with such a massive space. anyway anyway anyway....... back to labels.. yes. um, so, i've been thinking about my gender labels, and the whole genderqueer thing, whether or not i'm genderqueer or whatever the fuck. ( Read more... )
Anyway, I dunno if that would make me genderqueer, or gender variant, or what. I guess it doesn't really matter whether or not I label myself "genderqueer" or "gender-awesome" or "a mythical creature from the outer inner space of my mind-house." I dunno if it matters what I call myself, really. Mostly it matters to me what other people call me, like I don't like when people call me a girl or woman/womyn or refer to me with female pronouns. I much prefer male pronouns, but also, I'm pretty okay with "they / them / their" (even if it would be grammatically incorrect ;P), or instead of gendered words, ambiguous things like "sweetie," "hon"/"hun," "cutie," "child" / "honeychild," "baby" (depending on how well i know you), "babydoll," "sweet-pea," "sweetie-pie," "cupcake," etc.
I might come back to this and write more stuff, maybe come up with a list of fun potential gender labels for myself ("Peter Pan-ish cupcake sneaker pajamas!!!!11") but for now I need to go to bed cuz it is really late and i'm keeping my poor little babygirl puppy from getting a proper decent sleep.
edit thymez omg!!1: my dad came up to me earlier today and read a little bit of the top of this entry, chuckled and asked if i wrote about all our conversations in here :P uh, no, heh. anyway, he told me that he looked up "psychopath" and "psychopathology" and found out that there don't actually seem to be any clear definitions :D just like i figured. i guess that might've been his way of saying "you were right, i was wrong" but i'm not sure. anyway, i was glad to know that, cuz i think it's a pretty crappy term.
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http://www.girlsnotchicks.com/
lookit! gender (including gender play) empowerment coloring books for kids!!! soooo awesome. i totally wanna get some for my nephews, etc
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i think this is pretty great
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Wednesday, June 17th, 2009
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Don't take too long to think about it.
Fifteen books you've read that will always stick with you.
First fifteen you can recall in no more than 15 minutes.
Copy the instructions into your own post.
oh jeez, ok, let's see.....
(in no particular order)
Sister Safety Pin by Lorrie Sprecher
Boys Like Her by Taste This
Drawing Blood by Poppy Z. Brite
Girl, Interrupted by Susana Kaysen
Lost Souls by Poppy Z. Brite
Green Eggs and Ham by Dr. Suess
a book of nursery rhymes my parents read to us many, many times when i was little, so much that it was falling apart
a book of something like 2-minute stories for children, folk tales from various different cultures and countries
Valencia by Michelle Tea
Cunt: a declaration of independence by Inga Muscio
Godspeed by Lynn Breedlove
Salad Days by Charles Rommalotti
Common Sons by Ronald L. Donaghe
The Value of X by Poppy Z. Brite
Liquor by Poppy Z. Brite
goddammit, i'm at 15 already and i didn't even remember to put the HARRY POTTER BOOKS in the list!!! shit! those are some of my favorites :( as well as The Curious Case of the Dog In the Night-time by Mark Haddon. dammit, why'd it have to be only 15 books?! i love way more than 15 books :(
also, um, gee, can you tell i'm queer by the books i listed? i think around half of those are books i fell in love with as a dyke, then some i came to love as a kindasorta miscellaneous queer and a kinda andro trans kid, and then there's one mostly-hetero punk book, and one about rural farmer homos, and at least 2 about a couple of chefs who are also boyfriends.
there should be a list like this, but for zines :D
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hey. wondering... what's your favorite word, or favorite words?
i think mine are:
1) Lunch (meal eaten in mid-day)
2) Tuchus (Yiddish word for buttocks, ass, bum, etc.)
3) Chesticles (body parts on a human's [or android's or robot's] upper torso)
at first i was thinking "chesticles" was my second-favorite word, but i think my second-favorite is actually "tuchus" cuz it's more fun to say. (thanks for teaching me that word, Grandpa Herb! that and introducing me to Matzo ball soup, one of my favorite foods, mmmmm)
but lunch is my favorite of those words because you can eat it. (yeah, i know you can eat a tuchus, like on a pig or something, but i haven't that i know of and i don't think i will, unless i'm starving and that's literally the only thing to eat. nor have i eaten chesticles, just madeout with them, and i dunno if that counts.) chesticles are more fun to play with than lunch though, sometimes, but maybe not more so than a tuchus. and you can't fuck lunch.
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Thursday, June 11th, 2009
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i'm feeling better now than i was yesterday, for sure. i looked at my stomach and was reminded it's not completely coated with hair, and even if it were, i can shave it. and i can shave my shoulders and whatever else (which i will, when i get them tattooed). and that after i work out and get in shape, tone my muscles and lose weight, i'll probably feel a lot better about myself and how i look. also, being a guy doesn't mean i have to be macho. i figure i should just stay on testosterone, at a low level (as i am now.. half the standard dose every 2 weeks), cuz if i go off it now before i've had a hysto, i'll just start getting periods again and i'm pretty fucking sure i was really really really miserable when i was still having periods. i'm probably gonna read through some of my old journal(s) just to make sure and see if that changes my mind. a really good motivator for me to exercise should be that my tits look even bigger now than they used to be, and if they are, that's from me having gained weight :( ugggghhhhh grossss.
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Wednesday, June 10th, 2009
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i'm tired of having gender identity/gender expression issues, tired of body image / body size issues, missing a more androgynous version of myself. i'm thinking about stopping testosterone, at least for a little bit, to see if i like it better after i (theoretically?) return somewhat to my former version of myself. but that's the thing, it's only returning to my former state in theory. i probably won't be any thinner, and i dunno if the shape of my face will go back to how it was (or even if it was actually as thin as it looks in some old pictures, from certain angles), or if i'll be any happier with my body and face and how it all looks. i'll still be hairy as fuck, chubby/flabby and feeling gross about myself. and i'd have periods again, which would likely mean a return of Menstrual Cramps Ov DOOOM, and it'd be awful awkward to change pads in men's bathrooms (and i find men's bathrooms awkward anyway and i hate them), and there aren't really that many gender-neutral bathrooms around. so, i'm kinda screwed either way, really. shitburgers.
i wish i would just wake up one day soon and feel really good about myself, happy with how my face looks and at least feeling not that shitty about my body.
and i wish i knew before going on T that this would be how i'd turn out and that i'd still be feeling fucking shitty about myself. goddammit.
although sometimes i kinda miss seeing droplets of cunt blood exploding into beautiful pinkish blossoms in toilet water when i go pee, and i miss actually putting use to super-cute cloth pads hand-made by awesome womyn (though now they're getting sewn into a blanket for myself), i sure as fuck do not miss the godawful cramps, yeast infections, or the uber-sticky warmth and lack of breathing of my crotchenstein.
i just want to be thin again, and way less hairy, and to feel more beautiful and happy with how i look. and it's so hard for me to motivate myself to get thinner the healthy way (developing better eating habits, exercising regularly, etc.) rather than unhealthy ways (not eating, binging & puking, taking stimulants that act as appetite suppressants, etc). i definitely need some external motivation and support, i just dunno where to find that (especially for free).
i guess it doesn't matter what the fuck i label myself, genderqueer or something else or nothing, the fact is that i'm fucking unhappy, even after (almost) 5 years on testosterone which i thought would make me like myself soooo much better, and i hate it.
p.s. sorry if anything i wrote is triggering.
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So I saw NIN tonight, 3rd time, second at Merriweather Post Pavillion in Columbia, MD. They were AWESOME, as usual/always. Fucking great setlist, NIN were amazing of course, Trent and Robin are goddamn GORGEOUS, i totally want to lick them both. I love Robin's hair, and he's a kickass guitarist. It was kinda like deja vu seeing them onstage together at Merriweather cuz the first time I saw NIN, during the Fragility Tour on May 12, 2000, Robin was in the lineup as well :) and amazing then also. Man, they were SO AWESOME. I wish my phone didn't suck and got more than 15 seconds of video or I would've taken video. But I got a bunch of pics during different songs. I dunno who the bassist and drummer are now but they were really excellent as well. The bassist not only plays bass, he also plays guitar, and upright bass!! And he played upright bass during "Something I Can Never Have" and i think maybe one other song, and it was pretty rad to see that in Nine Inch Nails. Trent and Robin were spot-on as well, and the drummer is really really great, I dunno who he is but he's kinda like a punk drummer who went beyond punk. It was kinda weird to see them as just a four-piece, without another keyboardist, cuz they usually have 5 people in the band, but Trent writes all or most of the music and is excellent at piano and keyboard/synths, so it wasn't at all like they were actually missing anything, I just happened to notice that they had one less keyboardist/synth player. God, i love NIN so much. I'm SO glad I got to see them again, especially since they're s'posed to be going on hiatus after this tour. I will upload my pics I got later. Hopefully the smaller ones (200something x 400something? pixels) turn out alright. I changed it to 400something x 600something a bit later.
I wish I could go see NIN again but I have no fucking money. Some other NIN fans actually follow them around on tour and go to lots and lots of their shows. If I had the money, I probably would.
It was awesome hanging out with Renan and his friends, many of whom seemed to also be gay, so we all got to drool over Trent and Robin together and talk about how hot they are ;D and check out various guys in the crowd. Apparently, Renan quite likes frat boys and says they tend to be good lays cuz they tend to be dominant. I think I'll just take his word for it, for now at least, i dunno.
Besides uploading pics, I'll upload the setlist once I find one that seems complete on the NIN forums :)
PICS!!!: (not mine) http://beta.media.nin.com/gallery/index?g_type=token&g_val=2037&g_sort=newest&g_tag=&g_media=photo&page=1
also there was a wicked storm (not "wicked" as in "awesome"..though it was kinda cool... i am not a New Englander ok) yesterday. Rob Sheridan (works for NIN, excellent photographer) took pics: before- http://twitpic.com/6zzv6 and after- http://twitpic.com/70n7r there was also pink to the sunset at some points. it was beautiful.
I was planning on getting a NIN shirt from this tour, or something of Street Sweeper Social Club, but everything was fucking expensive as hell, ($35 for a T-shirt!!!) and I didn't have enough money, and I'm morally opposed to spending that much on clothes now, so I said "fuck it". I'll get something online later, probably.
Well, Elijah's sleeping over, in my bed so I'm sleepin on the couch, and he has to get up semi-early (10:30ish?) and I'll have to wake up and either walk him back to or point him in the direction of the metro, so I guess I should try to sleep. But I'm kind of awake, and thinking about eating at least one of the two candy bars I got at the gas station where we met up with Renan and got "dinner" (junk food). But I've been pretty good today and just had Pringles, a fruit & nut granola bar, a little Sprite, beer and french fries for "dinner".
I felt bad, like Elijah was being left-out, cuz during NIN i was diagonal from him and on the other side of some of Renan's friends so I didn't really get to hang out with him (not like i was really talking to anyone anyway, hello, NIN was on!), but then after NIN, Renan and I went to go get beer for us and a couple of his friends, and i got a hot dog for one of his friends (with her money and 3 bucks of mine...concert food & beer is expensive! like 8 bucks for a hot dog or something, ridiculous! 6 bucks for beer. sheeiiit.) and we went back and eventually found them, and since it was trouble finding them for a bit, and i was drinking my beer and eating french fries, i didn't feel like having to wade through people again to go find Elijah at the merch booth, so i just texted Elijah and told him i'd meet up with him when we were about to leave. So that was maybe 20 or 25 minutes? I asked him if he was ok and he said something like "Yeah i'm fine..." and I was like uhhh ok obviously the "...." must mean you're not fine, but whatever, he was being vague. But apparently he dislikes being around drunk people, cuz he's sober so being around people drinking and smoking weed and whatever else can be tough for him. I understand that, and i think he was right to avoid us and maybe other people drinking when possible. I think Renan already had had him hold a cup of beer for a moment, which was probably tempting I guess, I dunno. I think Elijah's okay though, he said he had a good time. He's just really socially awkward, even more so than I am (I'm actually fine around people who seem chill and/or are into the same stuff i'm into... mostly just shy/anxious around "normal" people & folks who seem hostile), so I guess that was hard for him being around Renan and Renan's friends. Oh well, at least he got to see NIN and got a new NIN hat for $40(!!!)
Man, Trent's fiancee' and Robin's wife(?) are SO LUCKY, jeez, Trent and Robin are smokin fuckin hot. I am pretty much in love with Robin's hair and wish mine were that cool (his is short cropped and then has a handful of long dreads at the crown).
Anyway, need to try to sleep, and cough to get fluid outta my chest from binding. toodle-loo
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CALL FOR SUBMISSION
3 Kings are three Brown-skinned/Black – male identified trans persons
who seek to give voice and page to the array of persons of color* who
may have been born female and now live all or a significant portion of
their lives as TransMen, FtM, Boi, Daddy, Tranny, Tranny Fag, Butch, G3
(gee cued –gender gifted guy,) 'masculine/masculinized' women (butches,
studs, aggressives, ballers, playas….,) Drag Kings, male illusionists,
Transgenders, Transsexuals, gender-queers, stealth, boys like us and
the likes**.
When considering works written over the past 25 years, there are a
plethora of books addressing the `social construction of masculinity.'
About 90 books deal specifically with TransGendered identities. To my
knowledge only four of the 90, specifically offer more than an
obligatory glimpse of what is repeatedly understood as the `illusive
FtM of color.' Where are the voices, opinions, insight of all the
black, brown, red and yellow 'masculine/masculinized' women, FTMs and
others?
We are the ones we are looking for and what our next generation needs.
We are requesting your unpublished stories, photographs, poems, essays,
drawings. At this time and for this volume, we are specifically seeking
submissions from the African Diaspora who identify as and/or live all
or a significant portion of their lives as FtM, Transmen, TransGender,
Fag, Boi, Tranny, Tranny Fag G3 (gee cubed –gender gifted guy,)
Transsexuals, Stealth, boys like us, Trans-identified Butches and the
likes.
21st Century Kings: An Introduction to A New Brown-skinned Masculinity
All submissions, commentary and visual works will be fully considered.
Each submission will receive a receipt of delivery via email. We are
also seeking/accepting photos, sketches, drawings, digital imagery,
cartoons and did we say poetry?!
Word Count/Page Limits:
- Personal Narratives: Up to 15 pages/5000 words Double Spaced
- Fiction: Up to 15 pages/3750 words – Double Spaced
- Critical Essays and Cultural Critiques: Up to 15 pages (including bibliography) 3750 words – Double Spaced
- Poetry/Rhymes: No more than 3 pages per poem/rhyme and 3 poems per poet/mc – Double Spaced
- Graphic Stories: No more than three pages per submission (number of panels up to you). Up to three pieces/stories per artist.
- Photographs/Paintings/Collage/Drawings: 3-5, scanned as B/W only. (No Originals, we are not returning ANYTHING).
New writers welcome!
DEADLINE: open until Midnight, September 1st 2009.
Please copy and paste your text into your email. Please send images in
jpeg format or paste into document. Mail to: 3kingsanthology@gmail.com
Here is our CURRENT FOCUS of WORKS being requested:
1. As Men: African American TransMen on their life, experience, and journey to 'man'.
• Tell us your story. We want anything you want to share about your transition
2. Third Sex/Recognize Me For Me: Passing African American butches and
non-transitioned/No Ho transgender folks on their life, experience and
journey to be a true expression of themselves.
• Here we imagine receiving work from African American Male/Masculine identified folks who are not currently on hormones.
3. In Spirit We Trust (?): TransMen and Spirituality
Here are some ideas that may help spur your writing…
Self/personal journey: Who supports you? Are you coupled? How do you
see yourself? What kind of challenges / issues do you have to deal with
being you? Do you see yourself as gay, straight, bi or…? Are you okay
with being referred to as a Tranny? Trans? Transexual? Are you stealth?
Who are your friends? Are you a parent? Co-parent? Adoptive parent?
Foster parent? Guardian? A Primary Provider for someone younger than 18?
On the job: Did you transition at work? What was that experience like? Did you keep your job? Do you feel safe?
Your Spiritual Life: Is spirituality important to you? Has your
relationship to spirituality, religion or your spiritual or religious
community change after you began taking T?
Have you transitioned? How so, in what ways? Are there differences in life as a woman of color to life as you live it now?
What about relationships with your family, children, "males" in your
life, friends, intimate ones, girlfriends, tricks, neighbors and random
human contact?
Health / wellness: Do you have safe places to go?
********************************************************************************************
Contact: 3kingsanthology@gmail.com
We are currently in negotiation with a publisher and will have one listed shortly.
Copy Rights: We will retain copy rights until publication. You have full rights after publication.
*We are aware this term may be offensive to some…if it offends you we apologize.
**There are as many terms as there are communities. Please contact us
if you feel you fit in this group even if you don't identify with the
terms.
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Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
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i love this i love this i love this i love this i love this
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crappy.
angry.